"Important" things

I am sure there are much more "important" things I should be writing about. I know about the pain & suffering in the world and I like to think I will still address it in my life's mission. So, I won't go to all the areas I could.

I was jealous tonight. I was jealous of an opportunity I passed up for someone else and the worst part was that I don't think it is even what I want most...but then again I don't really know. "she" seems like my future but I have had made such mistakes in the past. I hated be9ing selfish but a good friend told me it was normal and even implied it was too be expected. Am I wrong? Am I right? Did I miss an opportunity? Am I complicated things so much I am throwing things away?