Best writing after midnight

OK...going without for 11 days makes me realize that my best writing occurs after midnight. It doesn't matter if I am drunk or sober. One would have assumed being drunk helped...turns out not true!

So...going back to my Thursday post and looking back...I really was out of control in my thinking. You can't let any one thing be such a determinant of your happiness. I always knew that before, always gave advice on that before...and still even though I tried to prevent it from happening, fell into the trap once again. And it had been going on for longer than I had thought. In hindsight, people had actually made comments to me that I was moody, or something seemed wrong, or whatever. I didn't realize it was going on. Saturday, being unable to relax it started to get worse and even though I forced myself to have fun...I was so nervous and jumpy and unconfident when it was most important because things were building up inside of me. So, after some "out of nowhere" exchanges with my former personal coach, was made to realize I had to do something to break the cycle. I did. It wasn't the result I wanted, but I instantly had a sense of relief. Not all of my questions are answered and the future is still unclear. But, instantly I became me again. Confident and comfortable. I just had to switch my attitude to how I was going to approach things in my life.

Well, too much caffeine at the end of the night has forced me awake much longer than I should be again.